I'm tired. I don't want to play these mind games anymore. It's affecting other people and seeping out of the PM windows.

Clarity is what you wanted and I gave it to you--I told you how I felt, what I wanted, and so on. And you ended up laughing at me.

Tinapay naman eh...I just had to tell Martin that, huh? No no, walang BOYFRIEND--pero I was liking someone else. Not exactly kapalit mo. Just someone to look at. You have elevated to another level of affection, duh, and besides...I was upset about your non-imaginary date PAANO KUNG KAYO NA PALA?! :( but I can't be upset diba? But I am. Picture picture pa eh. That is not cheating, you see, because I don't have any one to cheat on. Then you ask me to add you again. Ang labo mo. Grabe. And it's not lying either. Telling you I lied is a lie because I don't want you to speculate dishonesty.

This is me. I'm not perfect--dont change me, please. You're not my parent, you're my peer! You help me change--that's what friends are for. And if you think that I'm not worth loving, then I guess...you wouldn't be too. Mind you, I called you late at night because I got home late and I called you again because when you did pick up my call, you didn't answer; all I said was hello? HELLO? HELLO? Nakakatanga diba? Sino ba namang hindi magagalit dun? And I keep on running after you because I know I keep on messing up.

Mind you, the only reason why I made so much calls before--ha ha 99 you tell some, then 100 the others, 50 to some--was because Camille kept diverting my calls to YOUR LANDLINE. Duhhhh. Oh pffsh, ano ka ba, I like talking to her na nga; best friends na nga kami ha ha ha ha ha ha. And because I want to talk to you--aren't you tired of typing too?

Why I want to talk to you FACE TO FACE is because I'm tired of talking to pixels already. Feeling mo naman if you think you're supposed to be scared--hahaha--Mr. Pogi in space...kailan ka bababa?

I'm not playing with you. It's just that your anger is tiring. It's often and familiar to me already--no longer alarming. Save your anger and save my tears for times like this--when it's really really unbearable already.

What I want doesn't matter. It's what you do that does--and this time, make it happen. I'm tired of rowing the boat already with your directions and when I followed my own, you laughed at me. That's just...great.

Clear enough?

Oh, and weakening my defenses by acting so nice--very strange; see? I do know you. Bwa ha ha. Yes, YOU and your lies.

Don't seek revenge for it will seek me by itself--I don't want you to be the cause of my misery because I'd have some one to blame other than myself.